Privileged

I was awakened my a text message I received this morning. It said, “Good morning Trizh. Ma’am Ruby here. Since it’s sem break, is it okay if I invite you to be my guest speaker for the leadership seminar of our student council leaders (elementary and high school) set on Novemeber 4?”

Honestly, I felt equally excited and uneasy. Excited because this kind of thing does not happen everyday. And if leadership seminars did occur everyday, I would not be chosen daily. Uneasy because it’s a challenge to me. This invitation served as a reminder for me to check on how I lived, influenced people, acted and thought. For a moment, there was this daunting moment of feeling unworthy. How many capable and competent people exist? My heart and mind were engaged in a squabble. Mind was insisting that there was a colorable truth in it. But heart argued that I was chosen for a purpose. You see, for a fleeting moment, they would not corroborate each other. So I told someone about what’s bothering me. It may seem a tiny matter to many, but IT IS THIS MASSIVE to me.

Through that person, it was affirmed that I will be speaking in front of young people because this is me. Because of what I have done and gone through. My imperfections matter — in a positive manner, however. I believe that the Man up there will use me on the 4th of November. So cross out ‘uneasy’ and let alone ‘excited’. :}

Romans 8:28

“All things work together for good, for those who love the Lord, and are called according to His purpose.”

I am capable and competent because I have a GREAT GOD!