TRUST and LISTEN: What if God lives next door?

My head had been in disarray. So many questions filled my mind to the point that they blocked me from thinking with reason. I felt like my whole being was cluttered with millions of papers and I was obliged to find that one paper which contained the answers to my questions. So I began my quest.

Every time I picked up a paper, I hoped. I hoped for answers. And while I do all these things in mind, eve more, I hoped I was doing things right.

Do it or not. Quit or not. Think or not – often times, I found myself being haunted by my options. I wanted to break free but the problem was breaking free meant making a choice. And exactly that was what burdened me. And to add, I did not know which choice to take. If only God had lived next to where I presently stay, then I would have knocked on his door. We could have talked over a cup of coffee. He could have embraced me as we parted. My life would have ceased from being in shambles. But that was not the case. Daily, I tripped, bruised and broke…until last night.

Yesterday, I arrived early from school due to Judge Soriano’s absence. I felt so down and weary that I only so desired to burst into tears. But even before one single tear plummeted from my eyes, I had opened my bible. My bible-reading plan cued me to read Psalm and Proverbs. As soon as I began reading, there was God talking to me. In Proverbs 03:5-6 He says:

“Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don't try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he's the one who will keep you on track.”

It was my God reminding me that that He is bigger than my problems, stronger than my weaknesses, & greater than my fears. He assured me that He does not expect me to know everything. As a matter of fact, in this season of my life, He only directs me to know and do two things:

1. Trust Him;

2. Listen for His voice in everything I do, everywhere I go.

I do not have to stress myself over whether I am doing it right. I do not have to set a journey to find answers. Trusting and Listening will already move God’s hand, grab me from where I am now, and place me on the right track. You may be situated in a place where I had gone. I encourage you to do the same – TRUST and LISTEN.

Remember what I said earlier about God living next door? And that it was not the case? It was not really the case here. Because last night, it was God who knocked on my heart’s door and paid me a visit. We sure did not talk over a cup of coffee. But nonetheless, we conversed over His promises. And when I closed my bible, there was peace which they define as one which passes all understanding.

And yes, the guy up there gave me a hug. :}

~Subic 2011~